Wednesday, April 27, 2011

Finals fear is creeping in

One paper to go and two finals and this year is over! The paper isn't anything to worry about and neither is one of my exams, but my international tax course is going to be interesting. The professor hasn't said anything about the exam. He only gave us a syllabus 3 classes into a 6 class short course. I'll be really interested and kind of terrified about what it might hold. My other paper is one on the impact of web 2.0 on negotiations. It's only 12 pages, so I can hammer that out since my outline is finally finished. All in all we're just gearing up for the summer.

Liam is taking care of Z for 8 weeks while I'm working. This means we have to get him and her fully acclimated to each other after 6 weeks apart. She'll need to take the bottle from him, let him shhhh her to sleep, and just getting a general schedule down. He's really worried about it and I'm worried that he's worried, but I think we'll get it done. I think the hardest thing for him will be sleep. I can get by on 4 hours, and then a couple of hours here or there. If he doesn't get 8 hours of uninterrupted sleep he gets a bit moany. I guess this will be a re-education in sleeping like a college student pulling an all-nighter.

Thursday, April 21, 2011

5 weeks of seperation

That is the longest our little family unit will ever be separated from now until graduation! Ten weeks is the longest we have had to be apart and 2 weeks the shorted. Ten weeks sucks big time, but we won't have to do it anymore. The general amount of time apart is at 3 weeks-3.5 weeks and after 2 years that seems a hell of a lot more manageable. I actually took out a little extra in loans to help pay for flights. It's a bit harder with a baby now. For flights over 7 hours she needs her own seat. And the "child's discount" on airfare is a joke. So Z is going to have tons of travel experience and hopefully become an awesome traveler/flyer so I don't go insane on the planes. We fly tonight and are going to visit Liam in Ireland. We're so excited and I can't wait. I wish most international flights weren't at night. It's taking so long to get there!

Liam and his dad are flying in together just an hour before Z and I arrive. They have the same connection in Adu Dhabi. His father is coming back from a golfing holiday with Liam's friends in Thailand. There was a set of older gents (60+), regular gents (40s) and the youngins (30-40). I can't wait to hear all the stories, but Liam has already said that he told the boys not to tell him about the trip b/c he would tell me b/c he can't keep anything from me. I think it's all a rouse and I'll get all the juicy details out of him!

Finals are right around the corner. I only have 2, which is so nice. I just have 2 short papers to complete and then I'm DONE! Well until summer classes begin...should be interesting to say the least. I'm looking forward to the tax class because I actually liked my Tax course last semester. It will help take the pressure off of me next school year, which is much appreciated. Registration is also happening. I always loved when the course schedule was released in undergrad, it's just a fun now! I'm looking to have all of my classes one day/wk in the fall. I will have class from 9am-10pm, but I only have to do it 11 times. I'm looking forward to it! Then there is only one semester to go. It's all so close...

Tuesday, April 19, 2011

Being a Mom is weird

It still feels really weird to be a mom. I still can't believe it and feel like I am possibly on the longest babysitting job ever. It's not that I don't love Z with all of my heart, would attack anyone like a crazy person given crazy pills if they tried to do anything to her. I look at her little face while she's asleep and think she is just the most adorable thing ever, but it still doesn't feel real sometimes. I think part of it stems from the fact that I am the oldest of a crap load of grandchildren, have often been the designated family babysitter and taking care of a 4 month old can kind of be a little boring.

Don't get my wrong, she's the cutest thing ever, but still pretty boring. Things are getting more interesting. She's starting to discover the world around her and I love to see her face when we go somewhere new, but I'm looking forward to talking. And I know once she starts talking I'll be willing her to shut it up after a hours of chatting my ear off. But I can't wait to hear her little voice and all the thoughts that come with it. I'm starting to feel like I'm not running triage as much. She's getting bigger everyday and I can imagine that the first time I hear "mama" I might just cry!

Thursday, April 14, 2011

Hunger Games

I know I shouldn't have time for things like this, but you think I'm going to read a treaties at 3am while feeding Z. Get real!

Hunger Games is the story of the world post-some unknown calamity where the all-powerful capital of a 12-District-based-former-US society, forces a boy and a girl from each district to fight to the death each year in the...ta-da Hunger Games. I started with the first book on my Kindle app on my ipod touch. I chewed through the trilogy in about a week. It's a lot of sleepless nights I know. It's a young adult series, but I found it compelling. Plus it's a little bloody for youngins. Thank goodness I could buy it online and not have to go to a bookstore and pretend I'm looking for it for my younger sisters (like I usually do for my junk food books :P)

The characters are kickass! I only wish I have the ridiculous survival and archery skills of the main protagonist Katniss. They are turning it into a movie and I hope they don't screw it up. It's so much better than Twilight (although I read all of those too), in that Katniss is strong, while conflicted about two strong men in her life, doesn't let this rule her life and she's not afraid to take everything into her own hands. Wish there were more books and I might start re-reading them when Z wakes up tonight.

Sunday, April 10, 2011

Things are beginning to not make my head explode

The crazy on the train everyday ridiculousness that was my life for the past month is finally over. I'm so relieved. I'm tired of lugging all of my crap around, being away from Z and just generally being tired pretty much 24/7. Tonight I will lay down and not have to get up at 5:30, 6:30 or gasp the latest I have been able to wake up for a long while, 7:30. I can actually sleep as late as I want before going to lunch with my aunt. Now it's time to work on my papers, put together a PowerPoint presentation on a super exciting international tax course, and study for my exams. On that note, I'm going to finish watching a horrible movie on ABC Family and go to bed.

Izzie Out!

Saturday, April 2, 2011

Starting to Panic

At least a little bit...with 2L coming to a close in a little over a month it's starting to get real. Really, real and I have no idea what I'm going to do. Yes, I have a summer position at a big firm, but I don't know if that is what I want to do. I'll see how it goes, once I find housing that isn't in a seriously skanky part of town, figure out childcare or have my grandmother come with us. The idea of spending 60 hours a week at work is not desirable for me or my family. We have one baby, but plan on at least a couple more before Liam gets much older. This is the trade off of marrying someone older and I wouldn't have it any other way. I would also like to be finished child bearing by my next -0 birthday. This means kids in short order in a short amount of time.

Being in the office until 10pm every night isn't really conducive to that or to family life in general, for us. If I could find an office that would allow working for home and some flexibility I would think about it. Now that the realness is beginning to hit, different options are starting to come to the surface. Or at least I'm trying to make them options.

I could go back to working at a university. The only problem is that many positions I would be looking for require masters degrees. Do I want to get a masters? Not really. Might I have to get one? Possibly. Once I start actually actively searching for jobs, I'll have to see if the JD would satisfy the criteria.

I could try to get a job at a large multinational as in-house counsel. I don't know what the possibility of getting a job would be right out of school, but I have friends, friends of friends, and even further out checking for me. I'll start off as low as I can go because this company would be big into growing my potential, paying for any other education and professional development, which would be nice.

The other option I have only recently thought of would be teaching. I don't know what I would need other than my JD to teach undergrad, but I think it would be an excellent option. But I'm not sure how conducive academia would be with family life, since the majority of my female professors were unmarried and if married, without children. Not sure it it was causation or correlation on that one. But the idea of getting a PhD is laughable. There is no freaking way it would happen, so that might count me out.

These are the options running through my mind. None seem particularly attainable right now, but I'm looking into distance learning masters degrees that might work. I'm also trying to find something that will keep me from feeling like I've dug my family into a seriously ridiculous financial hole!

All in all the semester is shaping up ok. I'm on top of my work and trying to get ready for finals. I'm not too worried or I just have enough other stuff to worry about that I don't have more room to worry. This doubt will pass once I have my diploma...I hope.